Sophia wouldn’t leave my shoes alone – she had a great time with them – don’t’ know why we buy the girl toys! She kept trying to put them on herself, then me, then was content just dragging them around. They amused her for at least 20 minutes. Was interesting to watch and wonder what her mind was processing.
Made me wonder….does God watch us with amusement too as we try to fill shoes that don’t fit in our lives. Jim called me on Friday to tell me that his brain tumor is triple the size it was last August. He doesn’t want any more chemo (wasn’t working anyway) or surgery – he is ready to meet his maker. Jim is ready – but those of us left here on earth sure aren’t ready for him to be gone….why is God calling him home? Who is going to fill his shoes here on earth? Does God think Jim has filled his shoes and done a great job – now it is time for him to come “home to heaven.” I listen to Jeremy Camp’s new song “There will be a day” about every day – often the tears fall freely as I drive my commute. But I keep listening to the song because in it is hope and a reminder that “there will be a day, with no more pain, no more suffering” and it reminds me Jim get’s to meet Jesus face to face before the rest of us. Now if I can only wrap my human mind around that and find solace, comfort, acceptance, peace….I’m going to miss those shoes….and so will the world that Jim has touched. But he is still here today – while 1,000 miles from me – I know he knows I love him and I know he loves me. I can still call him on the phone to hear his voice. I’m at peace with my brother. My brother is at peace with me. I found my wedding picture of Jim & Helen – love it. My other bro Gary and I were attendants.