In life sometimes I have “trust” issues – I know when trust is broken with me, I struggle to give that “trust” back and test the waters again. Trust is important to me. I often hear people say “I trust God” – but wonder do we fully let go to do that? It can be hard sometimes to trust others. Recently at midweek Anthony’s lesson was on trust and they did the experiment of being blind folded, crossing arms and falling backwards with “trust” that they’ll be caught by their partner. My good friend has “trust” broken in a marriage – how do you “trust” again if that happens? Do we forget God too and he is disappointed in us when we don’t trust him? I’m sure he does get disappointed with me over and over. Trust when broken, needs forgiveness and grace. This is hard stuff to fulfill.
When I look at the spider’s web I photographed today on my cousins’ farm – I am amazed at the trust the spider has that it suspends something so fragile in a place it can so easily be removed. But it doesn’t know that, does it? And if broken, it will spin another one. Today in Job 8 verses 13-15 I read: “Such is the destiny of all who forget God; so perishes the hope of the godless. What he trusts in is fragile, what he relies on is a spider’s web. He leans on his web, but it gives way; he clings to it, but it does not hold.”
I know God “holds” when we fall back to him, and I pray for the grace to “trust” again knowing I too am a sinner. May I have the grace to trust again as God trusts me.