Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Phew

Phew....where does time go?  May has been piano recitals, graduations, traditional May Fete parade, visiting family from B.C, and just May in general! A busy time. I’m eager for school to be out....eager to have more and more relaxed evenings. 
 I’m eager for my oldest to find a better groove, grow up some and develop some better shoulders for bearing responsibility.  He is my prayer child...I pray for all my children, but he really needs a few extra ones these days.  So, when you find yourself lifting up prayers – please say an extra for my Anthony. I know God has great plans for him if we can survive these upcoming teen years that will begin in June....but have already started.
 
God is reminding me – my children are His children and no matter how we raise them, they are free to make choices everyday. For the parent out there with perfect children – I envy you....but then again I don’t...nothing has been "easy" in my life and the trials given to me are a continuance to be able to handle what God is placing in my path with growth and keeping a positive attitude.  And God is still a-placin’ plenty these days!  I can’t even use words to place some burdens here for they don’t belong in black and white, but God knows my heavy heart and holds me daily in my walk.  I trip too and get disappointed in myself, but God still loves me and reminds me this journey will end before I am ready and my challenge is to find that joy despite the trials....
 
Every parade around here ends with the horses then the "clean up" crew.  It marks “the end” quickly scooped up. I’m not ready for the end, I want to linger in the middle as long as can be – savoring up life’s joys.  There is much joy surrounding me and when I hear the contagious giggle of Courtney at a dry joke of Steve’s it lifts the stress as I turn and watch a curly headed girl bounce about the house spreading her joy and love to all.....God is at work here....relief rains down...phew!

 

Job 16:4-6 (New International Version)

 4 I also could speak like you,
       if you were in my place;
       I could make fine speeches against you
       and shake my head at you.
 5 But my mouth would encourage you;
       comfort from my lips would bring you relief.
 6 "Yet if I speak, my pain is not relieved;
       and if I refrain, it does not go away.
 

Job 32:19-21 (New International Version)

 19 inside I am like bottled-up wine,
       like new wineskins ready to burst.
 20 I must speak and find relief;
       I must open my lips and reply.
 21 I will show partiality to no one,
       nor will I flatter any man;

4 comments:

They call me "Deb" said...

As the mom of an adult son and grandma of two - my heart recognizes the struggles of your heart.
I carried questions, frustrations, heart-ache, and even feelings of guilt and questions of "what could I have done differently?" for some time. Then I came to the realization that you've already reached. "No matter how we raise them, they are free to make choices..."
Today, I find myself still praying for better shoulders for my son and I probably always will.
I've come to realize that a mother's heavy heart is the true heart of intercession given to us by God. It's through the blessed burden of holding our children before the Lord (as no other could) that we discover the high calling and the joy of Motherhood.
Praying for your Anthony and for his Mom!
(((hugs)))
Deb

Dee said...

You never stop praying, holding your breath, biting your tongue, laughing and crying, being disappointed and being melted by a a smile or hug. Never! :)

Jackie said...

Hey Val!

I came over from Deb's - Truth Vessel and so blessed by your site. Love the photo in this post and so moved by your mama's heart request for prayer for Anthony. Please know that I've added Anthony and your family to my prayer list.

I'm a mama of two grown kids...son and daughter and I can assure you with the Lords help and prayers you will survive. My daughter Katie was my strong willed one and let me tell you there were times I thought I wouldn't make it....pull my hair out or cry till there were no more tears in prayer...BUT, all along I knew that His hand was upon her (and upon my son too) to mold her and bring her unto the place the He was bringing her to for His purposes. That gave this mama's heart hope and courage during those "difficult" years!!

I'm still praying similar prayers for them.....always will....He is Faithful!!

I'm following your blog now....hope you'll stop by my place for a visit sometime!!

Sweet Blessings!
Jackie

beckymc said...

hey Val, Just want you to know you are not alone. My daughter's teen years were awful! But we have grown way past that and now have a wonderful relationship. The mom struggle does not get eassier, I wish I could tell you it does. Know that as your blogging friend I am here for you and will continue to pray for you, the children and the family.
Remeber every laugh, remember every hug, remeber every little one's kiss these memories will bring joy to you for many years to come.

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