Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Following


I am called to follow God, follow His word, and follow his commands.

Deuteronomy 13:4  It is the LORD your God you must follow, and him you must revere. Keep his commands and obey him; serve him and hold fast to him.

Sometimes that following is hard when you think you’ve made a choice that was His will for your life and it becomes the hardest thing you’ve ever done.  I’m struggling right now with such a choice.  I’m wavering and doubting and trying to hold fast…believing love can conquer all….but thinking maybe I’ve just not gotten on my knees enough to truly follow and listen to what He is telling me.  I’m missing it…what is it that I’m just not getting?

My Tobias is taking D.A.R.E. at school right now – we’ve talked a lot about following the crowd and the tough choices that he’ll be presented with in his life.  We’ve talked openly and freely about alcohol, tobacco, inhalants and drugs.  We’ve set rules for our household should someone make a poor choice.  We’ve then had to use those rules lately….not easy stuff.  Following.  Following your peers or standing free and confident in who you are…..children love to follow.  Not always a good thing.

Soph has been invading my bathroom morning time and when I’m finally ready, before we leave my bathroom and bedroom, she has to be the “line leader” and I have to follow her.  She loves to have this important role as she leads me to the kitchen.  She makes me smile.

Sometimes I just want to be a goose in the middle, drafting off others, but we have to take our turns and pull to the front for the other geese for it to be successful…..we can’t just follow when it is our turn to lead.  So….I’ll pull up my socks, cast on my cloak of Christianity and with strength only He can give me will continue down this path one day at a time.  I’ll be the line leader when called to.  Praying for wisdom and holding fast to my Lord.  This too shall pass – (my friend says that all the time)….she is right.   

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