This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine…..don’t let Satan blow it out, I’m gonna let it shine….
When the pain shows up – everything changes. Life shifts as we respond each in our own way to deal with what life is giving us at the moment. I’m reminded of this childhood song I sang, I’ve also sung it to my children. It really has a strong message to return to.
As I look at the depth of my soul, and feel the brokenness and times the hopelessness to change a dark path into light, I strive to hold onto my positive outlook on life – my optimism – because, I truly am a hopeful optimist. That said, I stumble and fall like anyone. I hurt for the hurting and want healing to do miracles – because I believe, I have hope, I know they exist and desire one or more in the lives of my children!
I’ve heard the social workers tell me “kids like these usually don’t make it” – I know my odds are stacked the wrong way, I know love doesn’t fix everything and genetics and poor starts in life rule against me over and over that is makes me mad. I want to be the statistic that isn’t the norm – I want to break the odds. Time will tell.
So, I found this ring……(I love jewelry).
My hubby got it for me for Christmas.
It is described as “a little bit of joy peeking through the clouds, like a ray of sunshine.” Like it’s creator – who has a different journey of pain, I too will slip this ring on my finger daily – this sunburst to remind me, better days are ahead, the sun will shine through the clouds – joy will come through and peek out – allowing the strength of those rays to fill me with joy to survive the cloudy and stormy days.
Finding Joy in this journey is my challenge. This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine. Today Joy may or may not come…..I can choose it – but it also eludes me like water in a sink with a stopper that doesn’t hold the water in….there will be days like that.
We got the movie “Inside Out” – I really liked it – so profoundly simply in it’s message that Joy can’t survive alone without the other feelings as well. We can’t be just one thing – a healthy balance is needed, even for the depressing sadness, she was needed. A teamwork of emotions is needed.
Meanwhile, I’ll look at my ring and sing….This Little Light of Mine….I’m Gonna Let It Shine…..and remember to let the clouds be over the sun, but find a way to shine as often as possible.
I’m gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine….Everyday, everyday, everyday I’ll let my little light shine.
Eckhart Tolle: Joy does not come from what you do, it flows into what you do and thus into this world from deep within you.