Phew....where does time go?May has been piano recitals, graduations, traditional May Fete parade, visiting family from B.C, and just May in general! A busy time. I’m eager for school to be out....eager to have more and more relaxed evenings.
I’m eager for my oldest to find a better groove, grow up some and develop some better shoulders for bearing responsibility.He is my prayer child...I pray for all my children, but he really needs a few extra ones these days.So, when you find yourself lifting up prayers – please say an extra for my Anthony. I know God has great plans for him if we can survive these upcoming teen years that will begin in June....but have already started.
God is reminding me – my children are His children and no matter how we raise them, they are free to make choices everyday. For the parent out there with perfect children – I envy you....but then again I don’t...nothing has been "easy" in my life and the trials given to me are a continuance to be able to handle what God is placing in my path with growth and keeping a positive attitude.And God is still a-placin’ plenty these days!I can’t even use words to place some burdens here for they don’t belong in black and white, but God knows my heavy heart and holds me daily in my walk.I trip too and get disappointed in myself, but God still loves me and reminds me this journey will end before I am ready and my challenge is to find that joy despite the trials....
Every parade around here ends with the horses then the "clean up" crew.It marks “the end” quickly scooped up. I’m not ready for the end, I want to linger in the middle as long as can be – savoring up life’s joys.There is much joy surrounding me and when I hear the contagious giggle of Courtney at a dry joke of Steve’s it lifts the stress as I turn and watch a curly headed girl bounce about the house spreading her joy and love to all.....God is at work here....relief rains down...phew!
Job 16:4-6 (New International Version)
4 I also could speak like you,
if you were in my place;
I could make fine speeches against you
and shake my head at you.
5 But my mouth would encourage you;
comfort from my lips would bring you relief.
6 "Yet if I speak, my pain is not relieved;
and if I refrain, it does not go away.
Job 32:19-21 (New International Version)
19 inside I am like bottled-up wine,
like new wineskins ready to burst.
20 I must speak and find relief;
I must open my lips and reply.
21 I will show partiality to no one,
nor will I flatter any man;
Sophie pleads with us when we go to Walmart to go “look at the fish!” So, we go by them, she looks and oohs and ahhs.As a result we decided it would be interesting to get a Beta fish for her.She is excited about her fish.It’s name is “Blue” – can you tell why?
Years ago the boys had a red Beta fish. It was in one of those bowls with a plant on top. A friend (Rose) came to visit from Canada .I left her with the boys to run a quick errand up town and when I returned she said the boys made her feed the fish because they said she had to – so she did.Then she asked me “where is the fish?”We had a good laugh when I told her the fish had died three weeks earlier and the boys still hadn’t noticed, yet they made her feed it.The novelty of having a fish had worn off.So when it died I just didn’t mention it to the boys.
Isn’t is human nature – we like the new and exciting, yet once we get used to something, it can become routine, mundane.....we see parents this way, little babies are fun and exciting, but eventually they are work and it takes routine of loving with works to help them grow up.Some children become the red Beta fish – not cared for by their parents until it is too late.Or is it also like some marriages, routine – taken for granted, the excitement long gone after the honeymoon is over.Commitment, dedication and hard work just don’t rise up for some.
So Mr Blue – we’ll care for you, you may make it or not, but we’ll love you while you are here.I want my life to be like the newness of Blue – exciting and full of anticipation for what each day God brings me, but aware that routine is still OK!There may be “red” fish in my life that come and go that I won’t miss – that I don’t deny.But there are others I greatly miss in pain that doesn’t ease.
Lord, don’t let me take for granted the people in my life, the goodness you have given to me and the future before me.Help me to appreciate all you place in my path, from the Walmart fish to the children and husband you have blessed me with as well.Help me to do my best for your glory.
1 O LORD, our Lord,
how majestic is your name in all the earth!
You have set your glory
above the heavens.
2 From the lips of children and infants
you have ordained praise [b]
because of your enemies,
to silence the foe and the avenger.
3 When I consider your heavens,
the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
which you have set in place,
4 what is man that you are mindful of him,
the son of man that you care for him?
5 You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings [c]
and crowned him with glory and honor.
6 You made him ruler over the works of your hands;
you put everything under his feet:
7 all flocks and herds,
and the beasts of the field,
8 the birds of the air,
and the fish of the sea,
all that swim the paths of the seas.
9 O LORD, our Lord,
how majestic is your name in all the earth!