Saturday, August 13, 2011

Loss and Change

Loss and Change
Hi.  It has been a while again.  Our temperatures in KS have been 100 give or take for like 40 days and 40 nights.  Crops have withered and died, our grass is suffering greatly and we can’t get enough water on it this year. Rain comes with storms of late....too late for some crops possibly and we'll see if our yard rebounds.
Loss:  Summer was starting off wonderfully with a busy bang.   Then the big bang.  My Dad passed away on June 13th.  The world just stopped and we headed north to Canada to attend to his funeral, honoring a man who was larger than life to me and is so greatly missed.  This less than 1.5 years from my brother passing away from brain cancer.  Loss.  While he is released from the suffering of his asbestosis and restored above, he is missed greatly below.
Change:  In the midst of my Dad passing, I was looking at changing jobs.  When we returned to Kansas, I resigned after a collective 25 years with a company through mergers and growth….I broke away for a fresh start that showed me a better future in doing what I love to do.  That said, new challenges and starting from the bottom create stress too, no matter if we created the change, change is stress.
Prior to all of this, we’ve experienced some parenting moments that took us to a new low in having to call 911 on one of our children.  I’ve cried a fountain forever it seems….but this low brought forth the pursuing of new and more answers to get her the help she needs.  When at the depths, my wise mother-in-law said “I believe God gave her to you because he knew you wouldn’t quit on her and you’d pursue until answers have been found.”  Bless her wisdom, it gave me the strength and we are still doing that with testing, etc. 
Not but 30 days from my Dad’s passing away, my Uncle in Canada passed away too, this was really hard on my Mom….soo much loss, her first brother to pass away. 
So…..again, the song from Laura Story “Blessings” lifts me up in my weakness and allows my tears of healing to flow.  "what if my greatest disappointments or aching of this life, is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy?  What if trials of this life; the rain, the storms, the hardest nights, are your mercies in disguise?"  It is a great song - it challenges me to remember the Lord above has the ultimate plan in his hands.  So.....I'll pray for rain and mercies....pray with me friends.

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