Before Courtney left, we asked Sophia to pick out a stuffed animal
from her Stuffed Animal Zoo that she could hug when she was missing Courtney.
I rounded the corner into her room to put away laundry the other weekend, only
to find her standing in the middle of her room hugging Clifford in a tight
squeeze. Talk about heart break. She has had her as her sister since before
she was 2. She only knows her as her
sister. She misses her greatly. She knows why in a child’s sense that we
needed to do this for Courtney and us.
She asks when she’ll get to see her again. She talks of her daily.
She was playing on the ipad the other morning while I
showered and when I checked on her, she was pouting then started to cry. She’d gone to photos, found a picture of
Courtney and was just staring at her. Again, she asked when she’d
see her. I said – let’s take a picture
of Courtney and put it on your bulletin board so you can see her and pray for
her when you miss her.
Tough moments….and I know they aren’t over.
Winnie the Pooh says it best “If there ever comes a day when
we can’t be together, keep me in your heart, I’ll stay there forever.”